I wanted to feel something, so I went outside in the rain.
I took a few steps on my backyard and stopped. The rain was pouring and the water falling on me was heavy.
I looked up to the sky, it was dark. I spent a moment there, wondering what would happen to me if it turned to a storm, if the wind picks up, if the sky becomes alive with white flashes and loud sounds.
I sneezed, it made me realize. I was soaked to the bone and my body was really cold. I went back inside and fought for warmth through warm baths and hot beverages.
It was already too late and in the morning, as my head was throbbing and my breathing hard, I thought
To catch a cold instead of feelings, how a fool I was.