Holy Week – estranged

Report on faith
Monday
stayed at home
Tuesday
Same
Wednesday
Same
Thursday
Went to church but didn’t participate at all
Friday
Went to church and almost ignored the veneration part
Saturday
Did nothing
Sunday
(intended) to go

Straight dead spirited. Faith blown away.
Dark path. No more light, as little or weak it used to be.
It’s funny before I graduated, I couldn’t miss a Sunday and now I became one of the special events Catholics.
How could I possibly redeem myself if I don’t even feel guilty anymore?
I do feel concerned and pray mechanically.
But my spark is gone, as all ties are too thin to even transmit my words anymore.
Forgiveness, mercy, blessings, protection, wishes, cries and joy, whatever the communication was about seems too big to be carried on now.

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